I have very little energy.
Those two don't make good companions - well perhaps it would be more accurate to say the two opposing realities don't sit easily with me.
I am at home. I am seeing all the things that I mostly ignored before because I didn't have the time to see them or to do anything about them. Now I am seeing them ALL the time. I am trying to work in a kitchen that doesn't work for me and it frustrates me. Multiply that by each space in the house and it becomes hair-pullingly frustrating.
When I/we 'fix' one space it seems to make another space worse. For example, I moved the photo albums out of the corner of the lounge room and into the little room that Hubster affectionately called 'the resource centre'. That helped in the lounge but meant that the computer items stored in the resource centre had to be moved. They lived on and under the kitchen table for weeks before going under the house. The still are waiting sorting by Hubster and hopefully rehoming to folks who could use them. But the longer they sit, the older and more out of date they become. Some of his old hoarder habits come up from time to time. sigh.
Fixing teen 2's tiny bedroom and relocating the shelf to the resource centre solved some problems ... and created further problems.
Small space looking awfully squishy and not quite working.
In the corner is the shelf with stationery on the bottom and the printer on top.
Next is our girl's shelf.
On the far right is our book shelf.
In front is the trolley with stationery.
We used to have an office where all the office type stuffs were stored. Now they are spread over several rooms and none of it quite works.
The filing cabinet is in the kitchen - why? because that is the only place where it fitted.
It highlights for me several inter-linked space / storage matters.
When we moved here I bought a large ten seater dining table which we restored and is now smack in the middle of our large eat in kitchen.
I both love and hate this table. Love it 'cause it fits lots of people around it. Hate it 'cause it is too big for general family life, invites stuff to get dumped on it and blocks off too much of the usable space.
The following pics show both our kitchen and the big table in use at a recent gathering of my family - my parents, sisters, respective spouses and children.
looking towards the stove end of the kitchen
looking towards the useless pantry end with the doorway to the previously named resource centre.
Just in case you missed it ... the spaces in my home don't quite work. ;)
So I have added more tasks to my already too long project list and am feeling a little overwhelmed and under financed. There are things that need to happen in order for the next thing to happen. And so on. I am trying to plug away - at a snail's pace moving towards solving each issue. In the meanwhile I am living in a messy chaos.
And I have confirmed yet another thing about myself... I don't live with chaos easily. My old pattern is to get stuck in to resolve it. I can't do that any more. I am learning to live with the tension, but not doing it easily either.
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